Today*

Yaad hai voh pehli mulaaqaat yaad hai

Yaad hai mujhe teri har ek baat yaad hai
Voh maheki raatein, saari saugaatein
Bheegi meri aankhon se aansu beh chale
Kisse kuch puraane mil gaye
Rone ke bahaane mil gaye..

Kisse kuch puraane mil gaye

Rone ke bahaane mil gaye..

The fondness to this sad song makes me elated.

Love this song for today.

Room for Fantasies

I just stole a glance..oh down !. Not this. My mock tail is here and the discussion on lipsticks start over again. that blemishing pink is awesome. This penetrating blue awful,glossy orange,tint of crimson..and it went on. My eyes hook at his face once again and back down to the dazzling sticker on kim's cellphone. "1 message received"- the nokia reads and vibrates on my lap. It stroke like an alarm to correct myself. By the time i realized,the topic had switched from lipsticks to don't know what. Perhaps sumthing related to agony and then sumthing to do with eye candies. Eye candies bla..eye candies bla..eye candies blurr.. and my eyes roll again.this time gripped into his eyes and my head down again.the very next moment an air of current flows through till my toes as i realize his eyes were on me.

"indu bas stop! Enough of this peep and hide business".i yell at self.i give away my unfinished mock tail glass.A trip to washroom,back again,i sit with my back facing him being thankful for keeping the change unquestioned.Half an hour passes and its only a quarter left to 12 now.An urge of him continuously storming underneath. Queries prefixed with "will he" slide simultaneously. Before i appreciate my decision to turn back for a glance,the job is done, i'm finished turning around and he is gone. Awfulness fills me. I search a couple of directions,some more corners and a few more walls. Bells start ringing,carols are sung, merries of Christmas prevails and for the very umpteenth time i feel void. Annoyed. Dissapointed and lost.

"Samajh"

Puchti hoon mai samajh se ki kyu ayi woh meri nadaani ke beech.

Kyu sikha gayi mujhe woh saare matlab ?

Meri rooh ko jaga gayi woh ?

Abhi to bacchpana chuta bhi na tha.

Kagaz ki kashti dekh kar bhi labon par haasi aa jaati..

Ab to sochu jo ke ek pal thehar jau..

To zindagi chaar kadam age badh leti hai.

Aankhein maa ki ek nazar ko taras jaati hai.

Samundar ke anchal me jhulte jhulte..

Uski gehrayi ka andaaz ho gaya.

Jeene ke mayine badle,

Samajh se saamna ho gaya.

Normalcy...

Don't look at me with such expecting eyes.

I can't confront them.

Don't bring yourself too close to my cheeks.

I become uncomfortable.

Love seems to be so strange.

And im not expert at the fine art of ignoring.

When i turn and start going away, dont hold my hands tight.

It hurts.

Stop bringing my name on your lips.

Somewhere deep down my heart freezes.

The perfume points your presence here.

Im sinking finding ways to hide.

Trying to pretend that i unnoticed you.

Oh ! im so not trodden to this wet feeling yet.

So,leave me to myself.

Go ahead,out of my environs.

Leave me behind.

Never again look at me with those expecting eyes.

Restless forbearance

Of queries to my angel..
Was it you on that starry night when stars dangled from nowhere.
Was it you ?
You who let the quill lay on my shoulder when it drizzled ?
The one who vanished with the beam of piercing light when i had no control on my lashes, was it you ?
I stand here with the feather now,to take you away with me.
And you are nowhere to be seen.
Where are you now?Where?