"Samajh"

Puchti hoon mai samajh se ki kyu ayi woh meri nadaani ke beech.

Kyu sikha gayi mujhe woh saare matlab ?

Meri rooh ko jaga gayi woh ?

Abhi to bacchpana chuta bhi na tha.

Kagaz ki kashti dekh kar bhi labon par haasi aa jaati..

Ab to sochu jo ke ek pal thehar jau..

To zindagi chaar kadam age badh leti hai.

Aankhein maa ki ek nazar ko taras jaati hai.

Samundar ke anchal me jhulte jhulte..

Uski gehrayi ka andaaz ho gaya.

Jeene ke mayine badle,

Samajh se saamna ho gaya.

Normalcy...

Don't look at me with such expecting eyes.

I can't confront them.

Don't bring yourself too close to my cheeks.

I become uncomfortable.

Love seems to be so strange.

And im not expert at the fine art of ignoring.

When i turn and start going away, dont hold my hands tight.

It hurts.

Stop bringing my name on your lips.

Somewhere deep down my heart freezes.

The perfume points your presence here.

Im sinking finding ways to hide.

Trying to pretend that i unnoticed you.

Oh ! im so not trodden to this wet feeling yet.

So,leave me to myself.

Go ahead,out of my environs.

Leave me behind.

Never again look at me with those expecting eyes.

Restless forbearance

Of queries to my angel..
Was it you on that starry night when stars dangled from nowhere.
Was it you ?
You who let the quill lay on my shoulder when it drizzled ?
The one who vanished with the beam of piercing light when i had no control on my lashes, was it you ?
I stand here with the feather now,to take you away with me.
And you are nowhere to be seen.
Where are you now?Where?

Saggy` Shelter`

Below are the lines carelessly scribbled in the last page of my notebook during the last college hours..

Nothing much like giving a thought..

I am a skeleton.

I have no soul.

I have lived my fortune.

I have lived after i died.

I have crossed a horizon.

The one unnoticed by you.

Gimme your soul now.

Turn yourself into ashes.

Burn your desires.

Come to me.

Cherish your traumas.

Endure your griefs.

Kill the gift of Lord..the panacea.

Come to the one whose ecstasy is death.

Come to me.

Sumtimes..

Sometimes i try being angry..

Sometimes i wish to freak myself out..

I want to yell on people around and even at ones not around..

I wish to abuse every silly-rotten-shit-person..

"Tujha maiyla, Saalo kutro "

I wish to show The Finger and bury bodies alive..

I want to shrill and complain and gibber and exhaust and grow wicked..

Shrug !

I unsurprisingly fail !